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After not having a job for nearly a year I finally get one and I'm just so tired all of the time. I'm not really sure why because what I do doesn't really require much physical labor aside from walking. Combine that with staying up late all the time and you've got yourself a super tired me!

I have learned a lot in only a few short months this year. I've learned that being married can be a challenge when the individuals can't compromise. I've learned that many sacrifices were being made without my realization. I also learned that with anger comes the truth.

We've been through so much just to come back to the very same place that it all started. I'm glad to have a place to stay and a place to work. I'm extremely grateful for those things. As much as I complain every day about how much I don't want to be in this house again I know that I am safe.

I've made some very poor choices these last couple of months, but I plan to make up for it. I'm all talk but no walk sometimes and it's starting to get old. I've learned that I need to take initiative or nothing will be done right. So starting now, I'm going to do my best to get things done that need to be done.

I'm going to tear down the walls I've piled up to let people back in. I am not alone. I have friends and family that love me. There are people I haven't met yet that will come to love me.

I may be only 20 but it's time I stood up and acted like the adult I promised everyone I would be. Change doesn't happen overnight, but it will happen if I put forth the effort.

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IN OTHER NEWS:

Dramatical Murder is literally the best light novel/game ever. I can totally relate to Aoba and his personality. I wish I could have that crazy blue mullet hair *^*

Animal Crossing New Leaf is an amazing game and definitely worth the money.

Once again, I've come to face the fact that I haven't updated in two whole months. Well in that time frame so much has happened and once again Jon and I are forced to stay with a friend because we STILL don't have enough to find a place.

The plan is to save up as much as possible then find a place to move into. It's really a struggle, but I know we'll pull through somehow. It's extremely taxing emotionally wise and it can be hard to face the next day with any sort of confidence.

I'm glad we're in a place where nobody is going to try to take money from Jon. The idea when moving to his sister's place was to save money. He definitely couldn't do that because he paid the landlord for a house we stayed in for like a month and never got his deposit back. Fortunately for the evil Frenchman who was our landlord, he's getting in trouble with the law and will probably have to pay us thousands of dollars.

We are staying strong and loving each other through all of this mess.

Oh and my mom got a hysto and the surgery went great!

Good lord so much has happened over the past month.

Me and Jon got kicked out of his mother's house because she accused me of not doing anything and originally wanted me out but Jon, being my husband, told her that he would leave with me. It was an extremely emotional day to say the least. There were racial things said toward me and insults toward Jon. In the end we moved onto the same property as his older sister. We've been living in this house for about two weeks and just got internet 4 days ago. So the entire time we were staying elsewhere I had no wifi and I enjoyed the break from the internet. Thankfully, I'm not quite as dedicated to it as I used to be. A lot of things come before surfing the web.

I've been enjoying my new life as Jon's wife! We got this little house and its just perfect! I would post pictures but I'm feeling quite under the weather right now, so I'm just laying down and trying to fight off the migraine that has been terrorizing me for the past few days. I'm going to start working probably this weekend since the manager of Dairy Queen has been really busy and hasn't gotten to actually talk to me yet.

Jon is also going to take the driving test on Thursday and hopefully he will walk out with his license. I'm extremely proud of him for how much his driving has improved over the months. I've actually gotten to see him drive myself! *even though technically I shouldn't have* He never stops amazing me and he is the greatest man I could ever have in my life.

Oh and I forgot to mention that his mother basically hates me now and will not say anything to me. She apparently used to say good things about me to other people and then she snapped. I've slowly gotten over the fact that she may never talk to me again, but I'm glad that Jon and her can sometimes talk like civil human beings even though Jon doesn't like her anymore lol.

Nothing else to really say here, but the journals will be back regularly after today! Sorry for being away so long and hope to talk more soon.

So yesterday, I fell asleep and woke up too late to write a journal so here is a summary of my day yesterday. For the most part I felt pretty terrible even though Jon went to work late. I played Persona for a while trying to match SOS with my friend but it didn't work because there are so many people already playing that it would have been a rare chance to see each other. Hopefully we will try again in the future and actually see each other's SOS. I ended up talking to one of the nicest Disney friends I never got to talk to. It turns out that she's going to be staying for a whole year starting in September! I hope to spend a lot of time hanging out with her and her friends. She was very understanding of my situation and it turns out we actually have a lot in common. I was really drowsy and I fell asleep and then woke up feeling pretty terrible. My throat hurt and I hoped that if I drank water it would go away. I also felt pretty nauseated too. Jon and I made some dip and played Tales of Vesperia which was pretty fun.

Today for the most part has just been me playing Dark Souls and Face Timing with my sister. She just got Dark Souls and she got pretty frustrated. I even tried to help her beat a boss, but we kept dying. She made a new character now and is doing a lot better than before. I stopped playing myself because I came to a point where I can't figure out the boss's tactics. I'm going to wait for Jon to get home so he can show me how to play better. I just hope my attention span will hold out long enough.

That's all for today!